Guilty

Hmm..this few days alot thing happen..last week my uncle pass away..i feel so guilty i cannot attend his funeral..i at uni that time..cannot see his last face..i hope their family member will strong to go through this sadness..RIP..
then come to this week..alot assignment to do..need all settle during the holiday..but base on my exp,i will lazy to do when go back hometown..hahaha..gai lo..i will enjoy too much de during tis holiday..$$ oso fast byebye..haha
oh ya..today was going to alor star to release my alot alot alot alot stress..LOL..1st was going to mom's cafe (ibu mia kedai) but was closed..kns..waste oil nia..then go spring leaf..the food ok lo..mai hiam still ok..then after that go to alor star mall..go there sing K..just sing 4 song then soat throat..uhh..makes my voice become so sexy..hahaha..then go watch Step Up 3..i like the way they dance,baby..nice nice..i will rate 7/10..then go to Bali Bali Hai for dinner..i go call fried macaroni but when the food serve,become spaghetti..apa ini..nvm lo..then when i eat it,it is spicy wan..thanks to it..my voice more cool de..surely tml i cannot talk de.. :(


P.S : i very happy after i been wait so long, it starts got improvement :) cant wait for raya...

Relationship

Yesterday i saw someone post like a short article/note at facebook there..then i go see see..hmm..it talks bout a relationship..well..how do we know if the person we choose is the right person?..is it the right person is the only way to know we love them or not?..or is he is my mr. right?..i also dunno how to answer tis..but after i read it, they said in relationship, the key is not find the right person but is learning to love the person you found..falling is love is easy..it is natural and spontaneous..u dont need to do anything..tats y it called 'falling in love'..well of coz when u start a relationship, sure u will 101% in a love mode..everyday calling, sms-ing, miss them..but after a few month,year, surely u know..when they call u, u feel it so bothering..when it comes to touch, u feel not welcome it..to maintain a relationship is not easy..it takes times, effort and wisdom..u need to make it day in and day out..so even ur in close relationship, but u cant maintain it..its also useless..same to long-distance relationship too..God determines who walks into your life..it is up to you to decide who you let to walk away,who you let to stay, and who you refuse to let go..=) hope it useful for those in relationship..

Too Busy

Woaaah..its been few days dint write blog de..pai seh..i tooooooo busy..hahaha =)
Hmm..today is my last day McD delivery..weee at last i can sleep evening on monday and thursday de..so happy..last week n tis week totally dont have time to sleep..aiks..my bed so missssss me..
Oh ya..i'm going back to butterworth on 1st September de..sob..suppose to be 30th want..but that kns ming make me so late back..haiz..
If count from today onwards, i just left 6 days to go back butterworth..hee =) so happy
but 2 weeks holiday,aiks, got assignment to do..sienz le..i want enjoy my holiday =(
i wan go kai kai, buy sis present, see movie, eat delicious food..woahh..my $$ sure spend alot during holiday..actually if something dint happen,i supppose go to KL to give suprise want..but..in the end..haha dont have the fate to do it..
but nvm..its a past de..i need to see further..my future..what will happen during raya?..i hope its something excited..hee..ok la..need go dinner,bath and dota de.. =)

Love??

hmm..love??..whats is love??..for me, i dont know wat is love..haha i guess there is don have exact explanation bout wat is love..let say..if u love someone, and they will ask, wat u love about me.. guess mostly will said : i love u with no reason..
eventhough for me, i oso still finding the reason..love is wat??
izzit like when u will miss someone, always think bout them, wanna approach them.. this is love? i don have idea..
then how bout lust??..is lust consider as love too?..well u might can say it is a love oso..coz u are miss them, always think bout them.. but not their heart and is their sexual intercourse (copy from wikipedia) hahaha.. hmm.. then how about answer my question.. is it when u kiss someone and u keep tinking about it and u feel tat ur in love with them, so this consider lust or love?.. for me, i will take it as love.. well there might be a chance where ur love is started with a kiss (from the taiwan drama) haha.. i do believe love can started with a kiss.. hell yeah..
next would be love at first sight.. do u believe it? well for me, i don believe it.. when we 1st saw a person, surely tat is their appearance.. see how good looking they are.. maybe it is meet our requirement to be our partner.. then think about it.. is it consider as love? i just tink tat is not love, but is u like their good looking.. u just admire how good looking they are.. love comes from heart where u feel you are understand the person and u are ready together with them for a lifetime.. but for now, mostly people just think, as long today is happy, i don care bout tomorrow.. well there is a lot of this type of tinking nowadays.. why? coz u wont know tomorrow wat will happen to u.. maybe u would die in accident? get uncure disease? suddenly dead? who knows.. we dont know our future..
at least right now for me, i want appreciate every moment as possible.. maybe sometime i do tink, i always rush in my relationship and i do not truly understand the person.. but if tink in other way, every relationship u been before, it could be an experience for u, to become mature and on the way to find ur soul mate..
everyday we grow mature..dont u tink? even ur age 30+ u still on the way to become mature n better person.. if not believe, tink bout it.. tink back wat has u done in few month or week ago.. u will tink y i do such a childish stuff.. if u ever has tis kind of tinking, congratz.. u are growing mature.. haha =)

LDR

what is LDR? well it stand for long-distance relationship..i guess from the word,u will know wat it means de..
i do have experience in LDR before..from my experience,in LDR, both party need to trust each other and loyal too..if both cannot trust each other, i can say, the relationship cannot last long..
how to say a loyal to ur partner..well just don flirt especially there's someone approach to u..
beside that, i do learn smth from my experience.. ur relationship wont last long when there is 3rd person in ur relationship.. this means when u with ur dear, and there's a person come to approach and u fall in love with them, u sure will more concentrate on them than ur dear.. tats will makes u dont feel ur in love or interested wit ur dear anymore..
for me, when in relationship, i more independent type.. i guess tats my personality since i'm start any relationship..this means even i'm far away from my dear, i do not request for a call every nitez.. as long we can chat while maybe through msn, thats would be fine for me.. i only more dependable to my dear when we meet and together..
mostly when u just started ur relationship, tat is ur climax time..hahaha
why i say so? simple.. u sure every day, every hour, ever minute even every second u will miss ur dear.. u wanna talk to them, wanna know wat are they doing, do they miss u, and ur heartbeat sure goes twice faster..hahaha
well tats just my experience.. it might not same for others..
but for now, i not request much.. some people mostly will ask for good appearance, rich ass, got car, and some ask for the person good in bed.. haha.. u might not agree with me =)
but for me, heart is most important.. if u don have a heart to maintain a relationship, den u just fuck off and go flirt with others..
=)

Tired

today sooooo tired..just come back from delivery McD..really alot ppl come and take their food..at least it was my 1st time experience the delivery stuff..when at peak time,really need rush to pack the food and gave to the customer..then after finish clean the place,need carry the big tong to my fren room..he's stay at 4th floor..wahhh..my hand wan broke de..now no energy de =(
today just finish the 1st delivery..there is still have 2 more delivery..hopefully all will gonna smooth and dint encounter any prob..
tomorrow need to promote my McD at my own hostel..aiks..need thick face go ask ppl buy my burger de..hahaha
this week and next week oso gonna busy de..haiz..but when raya..teehee i can enjoy my holiday de..
i want go eat Tao during raya :( any volunteer to treat me? haha ;P

Sleepy Day

today is sleepy day..whole day so sleepy inside class..aiks..in class,me discuss with my fren about when wanna early holiday and late back to uni..haha plan all carefully,den can go buy bus ticket de..oh ya..today i met with someone weird..weird?? maybe..when finish class,i just go to my counter and meet my fren..den saw this guy sit at there and talk wit my fren oso..then i was take out my handsfree and listen to song..den he like keep see me?? i feel so weird..den he ask my fren where i'm from..mayb he thought i dint listen coz i was put on handsfree..but i just put low volume,so wat he ask i know..hahaha he also from sibu,sarawak..same like my coursemate..just know that all bout him only..hmm
tml would be the date for my 1st delivery of my McDonald project at the hostel..dont know will busy or not..hopefully everything would be smooth and fine..god bless us..amitofu..haha

Funny

Yesterday need walk the 2 block of the hostel to promote our McDonald to them.
All is going well and met many kinds of people. But really tired cause need go up and down and my legs so tired. Walk 2 block but just can sold 5 sets only..Sad
But the girls group member can sold 28 sets.. God.. This show the girl pandai makan.. Haha =P
Today i was checking my fren assignment to check his grammar mistake. Supposedly this ting is not me do wan, but the other group member push tis to me. Ahem.
When I open his assignment, i nearly faint.. I totally dunno wat he write inside..Hahaha
There are funny sentence inside that makes the whole sentence looks weird..
But when need to repair his sentence, this makes me pek chek.. I dunno wat he write and i dunno wat should i add inside.. Woah.. really beh tahan.. but i still need to do it.. if not later the lecturer also dunno wat he write den whole assignment get low marks..
Today go to my serving class and learn how to fold the napkin become a shape like wat u guys saw in the restaurant table.. there are alot shapes like oyster, bamboo shoot, candle and etc..
The practical part is not bad but when comes to theory part,i feel so sleepy.. Here comes my sleepy disease.. Haha

Busy Busy Busy

yo..its time to blog..this week and next week gonna be a busy week for me..need deliver McD since its 1 of my project, and assignment assignment assignment..gonna crazy soon..very tired..need extend the time to stay at the counter to boost up the sales..i miss my bed bed.. :(
and i guess its being 6 month i wait for a person..erm lets name it as "X"
since chinese new year at february till now, guess its 6 month..wah..freaking long de..
but i also confuse..should i keep wait or just give up? sometimes i feel very tired..
I also dont know what to do..............
I got think about it..perhaps when raya,see it is going well or not..
If really cannot anymore,perhaps i just give up.......

Suffer

aww..after so much fun at hometown, now back to the uni..so suffer..the cafe dint open at lunch,only start at 4pm..means i dont have food to eat for my brunch..looks like this month will become my diet month..i dont want thin anymore =( assignment also start to approach de..looks like will busy till raya..
but mention about raya, hee cant wait to get 2 weeks holiday there..and someone gonna come back too..well i hope all goes well and it will did according to my plan =)
looks like raya will have alot of activites..
well..need go to sleep de..
oyasuminasai~

1st time

This would be my first time to officially open my blog to all of my friend.. Last time I was put in private cause I just want someone to see only..but too bad..it just become my past already..=) anyways past is past..I don't want to think it anymore..It just become my memory only..
Since i decide to make a blog as I will consider it as my diary, I guess this would be my journey of my life..My life,friend,family and my love..
For those that read my blog,let me introduce myself..
I'm alwin =) 22 y/o, still as student at jungle university (yea!! really jungle)
I'm single but not available(still waiting someone)dont ask why cause i also dont know why ;)
Love is complicated and it makes me more complicated..zzz